Crushes,Crushes and Realizations

Having spent my entire schooling in a boys' school the subject of girls has always been as interesting as alien to me. This 'topic' has never been so alluring as it is now. For those guys living outside my city right now, what I write will seem quite stupid in their present context. But hey, aint blogging all about writing what comes in your mind?
I have to admit it... My love life(for those who dont know me... only my love life) has been a total disaster TILL NOW. I emphasize 'till now' due to assumptions that need no explanations.
Crushes came and went in my life like Indian batsmen did in the pitch, until lately. A maximum of two weeks for one crush. Then i would realize that it had been a total waste of time and move on with my life. But never have I expressed my feelings to the girl whom I supposedly 'loved'. Once i amassed the courage to say it, though rejection was not the answer she turned out to be elder than me. Why me??!!!!
Then another time... to another girl... I ended up giving her a candy rather than talk to her. This one was really funny. She was standing there alone and I, snatching the opportunity approached her. But as I opened my mouth to speak another friend of her's appeared from nowhere. I did the first thing that came to my mind to avoid embarrassment... took my mobile out and said the 'hello', meant for her, into it. Huh!!! mobiles... Later I got the chance I long awaited only to realize that I dint know what to talk to her. I DID NOT have anything to talk to her. So again I did what I did before (no...not the mobile). I had a candy in my pocket so to try and stay in her picture I offered it to her. Then after sometime I escaped from ground zero saying I had my project to attend to. At least my project did that much for me. I haven't spoken my mind though we chit chat sometimes in college.
Looking back now, these experiences have made me realize many facts and have convinced me to take many decisions. I am really happy with the way things are now. It is absolutely normal not to have a girl friend and that bachelorhood is the most blissful period of a man's life. I have stopped the search for the 'one' for me. Am really happy proud about a few friendships i struck since school, especially with some girls. So why disturb the equilibrium.
I might seem gutless and stupid to you... But I dont care about that. These are some episodes in my life I do not wish did not happen. Though I dont wish to repeat these blunders none not even myself can stop a crush from happening. Because you know... love may happen only once but crushes can happen a million times.